A Change is Finally a Comin!

A change is finally a comin!

I have been waiting and praying for a change to come in my life and after many, many, many disappointments, FINALLY I get one. We are moving to Florida!!! When Kenny told me that we were moving to Florida the first words out of my mouth was.....I need to work out! LOL! I wanna look healthy especially living in Florida! Plus, we are hopefully going home before we head down there and I wanna look SUPER DUPER awesome when I see my family! So FINALLY something awesome to focus on and look forward to and work towards! I have 5 months....I can and will do this! There is so much stuff that I have to do in those 5 months, but a healthy lifestyle never stops! So my routine sticks! And by the time I get to Florida...I am hoping to be at my first goal weight of 180 pounds. Then I can start my next 30 pounds and then it maintain time! I will be training for my half marathon too! So finally big changes are coming....and for once.....

I AM READY!

Anna and the chinese buffet....

So last night was a BATTLE. We met a few friends at a local Chinese restaurant. Which is my favorite. I wanted to suggest a healthy option but was shot down. So I took the chance.

As I sat outside of the restaurant I STILL had no idea what I was going to do! I sat down at the table and STILL had no idea what I was going to do. As I sat there I thought to myself...is it worth it. Is it the best option for me today? Do I wanna blow my week, and not get a free day on Saturday.....WELL, I decided NOPE. I sat there and watched everyone eat the food I wanted SOOOOOO bad! Nope, a glass of ice water held me over until we left and I headed straight to subway!

I can not even express how proud of myself I was! I COULD NOT believe myself. I had the self control. WOW! A few months ago I would not have even thought twice and just ate it...but I didn't!

Grocery Store Anxiety

So, I am in between workouts and I thought I would let you know about my experience this morning at the grocery store.

So there were a few things that i had forgot at the store saturday that I needed to pick up today. Well it was the first trip back to the store since I got back on the wagon. And it was a doozie. I have NEVER had so much anxiety going into a grocery store! I was so afraid that I would not stick to my list! I sat in the car for 5 minutes talking myself to go in! CrAzY! I went in and think I broke the world's fastest shopping record! I got in and got out. Wavered on one thing. I got a diet mountain dew. Diet ehhhh, at least it was not regular.

So my store adventure.....wow!

Ready...Set....GO

So over the last I would say 2 1/2 weeks I have been out of control. Out of wacko....OUT! No exercise, eating whatever...yeah...NOT GOOD!

So today November 1st. I am recommitting myself to do this for myself. To leave all mental drama behind me. To focus on me and the people I love the most. To make a routine and stick with it, even if I have to push trough the pain. To not get tunnel vision. Realize that yes there is a life outside of weight loss. And I have a right to live that too! I need to learn that exercise and weight loss and eating right is apart of my life now. I need to take things out and put things in so I can get it right. I think I have a few things figured out, but there is still a long way to go!

New start, new day! I AM WORTH IT! I am committed to do this FOR MYSELF, BY MYSELF! No one can do it for me! I am ready to start this full force again and not let anyone or anything get in MY way!

I will do this MY WAY and I will get it right! I am SOOOOO close and have came SOOOO far. I REFUSE to stop now!