inspiration and frustration

*~*~*~*~*~WARNING VENT~*~*~*~*~*

yes, that has been my week. A week of inspirations and frustrations. excitement and then depression. seems like NOTHING i did this week goes right. i should know better then to plan something. every time i do, it goes right down the crapper! every time I get my hopes up....u guessed it...down the crapper they go. so from now on i am not going to plan...just go and be happy. i am going to quit worrying about things i can not change. and worry about me. selfish i know. but i gotta do what i gotta do. i am tired of getting my hopes broken. so it's time i quit looking up to someone but instead look in the mirror at me. see me for who i am and for who i will be. i will search for that dream job that will fit me. i will get to my goal weight. I will reach my dreams!