Just relax....

Ha ha ha ha, now that is something i hear all the time. Anna, just relax. And I just have to laugh because honestly...I forgot how. No, being totally serious. I make time for work (even on my days I am supposed to be off...they still find a way to make me work), my husband, my family, my friends, my workout...but not myself. As a friend of mine said a while back...I have tunnel vision. I do!! I have been so focused on my weight loss, I have lost me. The fun, loving me. I dunno what it means to relax anymore. I have a room full of scrapbooking supplies that i have not touched in a year. It's not that I don't want to..it's I don't feel like it. I know that seems like a cop out. But to be creative you have to feel it. And I don't. Plus it takes thinking and with this tunnel vision I have...ha ha ha thinking in my world is hitting my numbers on my bodybugg, making sure that everyone else is taken care of but myself. Granted, I have been taking care of myself physically. Eating better, working out...BUT and a big BUT I have not been mentally taking care of myself. I have no concept of relaxation. My mind goes 100 miles a minute all the time. Planning and worrying and trying to stay a head of myself to make sure I don't slip and get back into the "old me". I don't want to be that girl anymore. I wanna be outgoing and fun. but it seems right now I am dull and focused. GRRRRR.

So for those of you who read this....what do you do to relax. To mentally take care of yourself. I am needing something. Something that does not require too much thinking...Seriously....LOL!

Thanks for reading my bumbling.